"The headiest loves were the loves that couldn’t be."
- The Luxe, Anna Godbersen (via wordsfromya)
(via thegirlwithout)
I don’t want you to love me, just like they did.
I long for the day that I meet someone who wants me, all of me and ONLY me. Someone who needs me, just as much as I need them, someone who won’t ever leave me, no matter how many arguments we have, no matter how bitchy, weird and needy I am.
Everyone I’ve been with is so good with their words and makes me believe that they are “For Real” and it sucks finally finding out that they’re not what they appear to be. It sucks getting so fucking attached to people and then have them out of your like, *boom* like that.. realizing that they’re not this trustworthy person that they make their selves appear to be. It’s hard, I don’t know how people don’t have a bigger guilty conscience and actually be real, I feel bad if I lie anymore and end up telling the truth, true story.. I know what it’s like to be lied to and to be cheated on, and I also know what it’s like to be that person cheating and lieing. I feel like everyone has a cheating phase and you have to grow out of it and realize “what if that was you that had to feel that hurt..” I am proud to say that I’ve outgrown that phase, and if I didn’t go through it I wouldn’t be the person I am today. BUT, what I don’t get is cheating on someone who would do absolutely anything for you, someone who would never hurt you in ways that they would you. It fathoms me so much and pisses me off at the same time, WHY WHY WHY do someone wrong when they think the world of you?? When they would never in a million years break your heart? It fucks with me so fucking bad when people treat good fucking people bad. Like holy fuck, what is your dysfunction???? Do you not want someone to treat you right, do you not want someone who would always be there for you no matter what? Or do you just like taking advantage of that because you think they won’t leave you??? I guess it helps you see there true person and move on to better things, to someone who one day will treat you right.
I fucking hate humans, I would have much rather have been a cat. And I’m NEVER having kids, I think having a kid is selfish, and I don’t ever want to bring a human into this world to live. Life isn’t that great, and feelings suck and I’d never want to put a human through life, it just hurts. Life hurts, but you have to make the most of it.
